It Takes One to Know One

I attended a 50th birthday party for a friend this weekend. I haven't been in much of a partying mood and was hesitant in going. Truthfully, I still can't kick this down in the dump shitting feeling but I thought I could use a change of scenery.

I was bored as hell at first and I only knew a few people there. Nothing too exciting was going on so I sat there sipping my wine and just observed other people. As more people arrived and the first keg of beer was quickly being drained the party picked up and people started talking to everybody like their life long friend.

What's a keg of beer without the games. Tables were suddenly filled with people playing beer pong and flip cup. OK, I have to admit that I have never played beer pong or flip cup in my life. But this was a party and I'm always up to try something new so I got in on a game of beer pong. I'm not a beer drinker so they allowed my cups to be filled with small amounts of wine. My side didn't win but both sides were down to one cup each before the winning ball was thrown.

Among my observation of people was a couple in their early 50's. After a short time of watching them I knew that they were in a D/s relationship. It must be true when they say, it takes one to know one. There was more affection between them, touching, a little kiss as they passed each other in the room, staying connected through eye contact and of course that special communication they had where no words are spoken. I noticed a raised eyebrow, a glance, a quick point of the finger from him and her response was immediate. I started speaking with them casually and again noticed the quick flick of the finger to her when she would get too loud or silly. It was a gesture that most people in the vanilla world wouldn't even notice but it was clear as a bell to me. After about the third time of him flicking the finger I jokingly said to her that she better behave herself or when she gets home he's going to take her over his knee. Their faces both lit up and with a big laugh she said that's what she was hoping for. She then gave me a big hug, a sign of our oneness and understanding. They told me they were together since their early teens and living the way that they do has made every day special.

Seeing them interact was so refreshing but I do envy them. Yes, it made me think of someone and how I thought our life was going to be. It was also encouraging to see that it's possible.

Love, peace and joy to all of you,

me

Breasts

First, I want to thank everyone for your kind words and support. I really appreciated it.

I haven't made any major changes in my life, yet. No Florida Dom, I haven't shaved but I did trim myself up. Shaving may come later because I can do whatever I want. However, I'm still not sure what I want or what direction I want to take in my life but I do feel that changes will be coming. For now, I just need to take care of ME and get my life organized again.

Since my blog is still up I thought, why not write. And since the only picture that remains on my blog is one of my breasts let's talk breasts.

October is one of my favorite months. I love the cool air, the changing colors of the leaves, pumpkins, the smell of a fireplace, laying in front of a fireplace naked and of course breasts.

October is also National Breast Cancer Awareness Month which I am a big advocate of. I have a family history of breast cancer. My mother died of breast cancer, my sister is a survivor and another sister and myself both had major scares.

Just a brief history: my mother had a very aggressive form of cancer. She was healthy, didn't drink, never smoked a day in her life so we were all shocked when we found out she had cancer. I saw a beautiful woman go from 160 pounds down to 90 pounds, thick dark hair to bald, tubes and bags replaced her organs because the cancer spread throughout her body and caused her stomach to burst. Yet what didn't change was her faith and strength. She never complained or said, "why me". She endured until the end and it was only on the night that she passed that she asked for pain medication.

My sister's cancer did not spread and only the tumor, part of her breast and some lymph glands had to be removed. She is free of cancer but suffers from the life long side-effects of chemo and surgery which includes muscle and joint pain and lymphodema.

I had a solid mass in my breast that formed it's own blood supply (a sign of cancer). I was told I needed surgery. Due to my implants the surgeon who would perform the needle guided ultra-sound technique didn't want to take the chance and referred me to a specialist to do an open surgery. Waiting for my appointment I did tons of research. I started dry body brushing (still do) which helps the lymph system in cleansing the body of toxins. I took green tea extract, CO Q10, burdock root and pancreatic enzyme. I also prayed and asked my mother to help. Before I saw the specialist he ordered another ultra-sound. Those results showed the solid mass now had transparent fluid. When he saw me he told me he wanted to wait and do another ultra-sound in another month. Those results showed no further growth and it was almost all transparent fluid and it's blood supply was lost. No surgery required. Was it cancer? Did my alternative treatment help? Did prayer help? All I can say is after a scare like that I take care of myself and check my boobies.

Cancer has no boundaries. It can hit anyone at anytime. I do feel that toxins in our environment is the biggest cause.

Please:

1. Feel your boobies. Do a self-breast exam every month. Show your partner how to examine them too and what to feel for. It can be enjoyable as well as life-saving.




2. Stop the chemicals and preservatives. Go organic if possible. Pick fresh over package. Screw the convenience. Your life is worth the few extra minutes it takes to make something fresh. Bleach is for cleaning not our food. Buy whole grain foods, unbleached not white. Even those paper coffee filters are bleached and the hot coffee pulls traces of the chemicals into the coffee you're drinking. Buy unbleached or a reusable filter. Use glass, not plastic or styrofoam.


3. Play safe. Breast bondage is fun but you know best what feels right and what doesn't. If you have a concern speak to your Dom. A controlled study at the North Lancashire Breast Screening Service showed that models of epithelial cell generation indicated that a causal link between physical trauma and cancer is plausible. A latent interval between cancer onset and presentation of under 5 years is also plausible.The most likely explanation of the findings is that physical trauma can cause breast cancer.


4. Don't get stressed. Stress screws up the immune system. We all get overwhelmed. We sometimes take on too much. You are not being a good sub or slave if you run yourself into the ground and can't function or think right. Ask for time out for yourself to relax. Your health depends on it.


5. Please, don't smoke ,exercise and love yourself.

Love, Peace and Joy to all,

me aka whore

What Happened

I am sorry to all my faithful followers and friends for the sudden deletion of all the posts and pictures. I was not aware that everything was removed until I started to get emails asking what happened.
All I will say is that due to circumstances beyond my control what started as a beautiful relationship between two people has changed to a friendship. Difficult as it was to accept I do realise that it's for the best. He had my body, he had my heart, he now has my hand reached out to him as a friend.
I'm not sure yet what path my life will take but I look at everything on spiritual terms and growth. What new doors will open for me and what adventures await me!
I may continue the blog but if I do it will take on a new twist, maybe No Man's Whore or Whore Without a Man or maybe Whore on a rocking chair twiddling her thumbs. Who knows, maybe one day it will pick up again as One Man's Whore.
For now Love, Peace and Joy to all.
whore